Life is not as beautiful as everyone makes it out to be. People are mean, crazy, hurtful and anything that could lead someone to their last resort. The human mind is filled with millions of holes to think about, from what you're going to wear tomorrow to how you might leave the earth as quickly as possible. It can be beautiful but it could also be your worst nightmare. Is this really life? Once you realize that not everything has a happy ending and not everyone can be their favorite princess from their childhood, things get a little darker. Learning and growing seemed like the best thing ever, hanging out with your friends and learning things to impress others, but once all the easy things are well known, reality is all that's left. No more pretending and no easy way out, you are basically stuck. Growing up seemed like a fantasy and for most, it is now a nightmare from which we will never wake up. Everyone makes mistakes, it's a part of life that no one can take away, but only the lucky ones and enough strength will. being able to look beyond them in the end. But for others, this is not the case. Living with regret and trying to understand why you, of all people, had to do what made you the “terrible” person you are now. Some things will stay with us forever, the pain, the noise, the thoughts, the images, the touch of what you are so afraid of now. Why must it be this way for so many desperate people? You are alone and you feel like there is no way out. You have to run as far as possible to escape the pain. Maybe you'll have fun so fast and so far that you'll finally be free. Maybe if you jump as high as you can it will stay below you. Maybe if you go... middle of paper...... and one rude person at a time. She didn't do any good because she was fighting against herself, but she didn't want to hurt anyone. Her family were the only people she had left in the big world around her and she couldn't imagine a time when she wouldn't have them by her side. Things were definitely getting harder as time went on. Arguments, shouting and fights often but it was because of her as she thought. Her bad mood spread to everyone around her and she took full responsibility for it without anyone knowing. Her grades have dropped, her social life is no longer as important, she has become her own best friend. She became best friends with the self who held a knife behind her back and said it was the right thing to do. School was difficult for her and was getting more difficult every day. She was a mess and when the guidance counselor received some interesting news, she was called in to talk to him..