For a certain Bendrix, he begins the book as a “record of hatred” (1951, 1.I.1) because he “hated Henry – also hated his wife Sarah” (1951). , 1.I.1) but he wonders if his “hatred is really as deficient as my love” (1951, 2.II.44) and later recognizes that his “hatred has gone astray” (1951, 4. I.107). . For him, it is simply the loss of love that creates what he perceives as hatred, but even that dissipates and reveals itself to be nothing but anger and unhappiness. For Sarah, this leads her to hate herself as "a bitch and an impostor" (1951, 3.II.75), who leads others to unhappiness and cannot herself cope with her true emotions. Love at the end of the affair seems to destroy the everyday facade and leaves behind the worst parts of our personality: for Bendrix, it is his jealous possessiveness, for Sarah, it is his lies. However, we cannot hate without love because “hate seems to make the same glands work as love” (1951, 1.III.19), an idea which explains Bendrix so well, because even in his hatred, he is always